Hello, I am still Emily. For those of you who don’t know, I’m a writer – well, author – and I’m doing okay. As it’s a new year, and because it’s still January (because this month is dragging like a Monday), I thought it would be a good idea to give you all an update on my life and how I’m doing.
I feel the need to let you all know that at the moment I feel as though I’m sat on the very edge of a breakthrough. It feels as though my life is one step away from falling into place. Although there are quite a few struggles I’m facing at the moment, I know that once I’ve thought (well, over-thought) them all through it should be okay.
To explain this breakthrough more for you, I should probably put it into perspective. It mostly relates to my writing career, and this is manifesting in a full author life re-vamp. The website, the proof-read, the covers, how I present myself. I’m hoping to change almost everything, and I think it’s about time. At the moment with my author life, I feel very stuck, glued to my book series and making social media posts that I’m not too passionate about. I feel like I’m pushing the wrong thing and as a result I’m looking at my author life with perhaps a more negative view than I would like. This is probably because I’m kind of terrified of putting myself out into the world, especially when it comes to my private life, and marketing my books which I know I can improve a lot. Don’t get me wrong, I am so proud of my books, and being able to publish them and let awesome readers like yourself give them a read. But, to an extent, I feel like maybe I took the publishing step a little too soon.
As a result, I think it’s time I took a step back and have, for the moment, unpublished my books. I was so focused on getting my work out there, and being proud that I’d taken the first step, that I don’t think I fully considered other possibilities. I certainly didn’t think about how I was going to have to take on such a professional role, especially so soon. Being seventeen when I first published Dimensions was a mega achievement, but I wish I’d sat down and waited with it for a little longer. This would probably make me feel a lot less lost in the writing community and help me with building a safe and secure platform which isn’t centred on just one book series.
Also, concerning my author life, I’d love to be able to push my blogs a little further, and focus on this aspect of my writing life a lot more. Blogging makes me happy, which is something I need right now. I think being able to share my life lessons with you all just makes me feel great, and I’d like to hope that I’m building a safe platform for me to be able to do this.
I know I’ve got a lot to do, but I think I’m finally prepared to put in the effort I need to.
Moving on from my author life and social presence, we arrive at my relationship which is going pretty well. It’s almost been six months with C (some of the best months in my life, ever). I love him, he’s great and I get to spend a good portion of my time with him (Yessss!). He’s just awesome.
And, as we’re talking about relationships, we arrive at my relationship with my family – who I love. At the moment family life is just that, but I know I’ve been kind of distant from them recently. I think that because I’ve been struggling with my goals concerning my career, and that because I’m finally living properly for the first time, that I’ve become – not distracted but, I don’t know, I think I’ve realised that I don’t have to lean so heavily on my family. With my awesome sister (hello, if you’re reading this. See you tomorrow!) away at Uni it feels as though it’s okay for all of us to start finding our own way in life. We’re allowed to leave the nest, which is kind of what I’m doing, one small step at a time.
Overall, I think this year is going to be okay (despite the global catastrophes that have already happened so far this year). I think, that for the first time in a while, I’m doing okay. Everything seems to be normal and good. Some things are even great. I’m just hoping that with my increased productivity and my readiness to put in the effort, that everything is going to finally fit into its place. I want to finally climb over the edge of my breakthrough.
As always, thank you for reading, and stick around for another exciting blog next time.
Make sure, if you haven’t, that you check out my last blog: My Favourite Sweets
If you’ve done that, feel free to keep up with my life on social media:
I’ve got Instagram – @emilybrownauthor
And also Facebook – @emilybrownauthor
(Sorry, I’m still trying to figure out privacy settings on Pinterest – I don’t think they have any – so you’re going to have to hold on for a little longer).